Not for everyone...

Right now I'm going to say a few things that might not be for everyone. It might get taken out of context, it might "offend" some people but I need to say it. So, if already your feeling negative towards what I'm about to say then you might not want to continue on reading. It's how I feel and what I struggle with everyday. It's the truth about how I feel. So read with caution.

The one thing I hate the most about the world I live in is how society makes you feel that you need to look a certain way, be a certain weight, and well... be perfect.

I am NOT perfect, nor will I ever be perfect.

I'm not a size 3, and probably will never be.

I don't have perfect hair, I don't have the nicest clothes in my closet,

 I don't have the hottest shoes on the market.

I don't go to the gym everyday, I don't tan at a salon.

And probably never will, But i am ok with that!

I'm tired of Mike telling me how beautiful I am everyday and laughing in his face because I have a few stretch marks, extra weight that I could lose, Hair that definitley needs to be colored or trimmed, Clothes that are old or handed down, skin that could blind you if your not wearing sunglasses, etc.

I may not be perfect in the eyes of the world, I didn't magically shed the weight I gained from carrying my child inside me for 9 months. I don't have a nice tan,  I don't always walk out of the door looking like I could be straight out of a magazine.

So why should I beat myself up everyday when I wake up?

 I could use the excuse of "I just had a kid" but who am I trying to impress?

The only person I need to please is myself. I need to know that no matter what anyone says I am beautiful just the way I am! But how can I when I'm constantly being slapped in the face with reality. Reality is no matter what I say or do there will always be someone trying to break me down.

This is just how I feel. I'm not saying i'm going to wake up tomorrow and be this whole new confident person that walks around with my head held high, that is also just who I am not. I will probably continue to struggle with my image and the way the world says I should look; but that's just the truth I just needed to vent and put my thoughts into words. So the next time you go to judge someone about their weight, or their clothes. The way their hair looks, or the fact that "OMG they're not wearing any makeup". Think about how they may be feeling on the inside. The fact that they know they ran out of the house wearing a hoodie, they know they don't look the way they used to back then. THEY KNOW, they don't need to be reminded.